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[concretejungles]

>"Hey there! You've reached Masaomi's Super Dangerous Love Hotline!
If you're in need of romantic affection or just a friend, leave a message and I'll get back to you soon!


...If this is Izaya-san, you can hang up now."

text, video, or voice!
Zodion only please!

Comments

[ballpoint]

You're sure? Ever since we fought, you've....

[concretejungles]

You know I can't stay mad at you, Mikado! (´ ▽｀)

It isn't your fault anyway.

Like I said, I'm just busy! σ(ﾟｰ^*)

[ballpoint]

You say that, but...

[concretejungles]

No butts!

I'm not mad at you, and that's 100% the truth!

[ballpoint]

...Alright, I'll believe you're not mad at me, but... I still don't think you're just "busy".

[concretejungles]

Well you can spend the night forming conspiracy theories about what I'm up to if you like

but they'd better be good!

[ballpoint]

With you leaving before I wake up and not answering me when I knock, thinking up something about someone is useless if you can't tell them.

[concretejungles]

I didn't know you were knocking.

I'm a deep sleeper, y'know!(o≧∀≦)o^☆

But you're talking to me now, right?]

[ballpoint]

I am, but....

[concretejungles]

but?

[ballpoint]

...It feels weird not talking to you, when I should be able to. Um... like when you left.

[concretejungles]

[Oh.

Nope, he can't think of a fakehappy way to respond to that, so...

he won't respond at all just yet]

[ballpoint]

Eh.... I guess... what I'm saying is...


...Um. Do you remember when we were little, where we played games where you were a knight?

[concretejungles]

[And he can't not respond to that one.]

yeah?

[ballpoint]

...Eh... This is going to be so cliche you'll make fun of me, but...

In games and manga, the best friendships are always between the knight and the person they protect... So... Even though we're older, and playing like that is seen as stupid...

...When you're gone, that kind of 'dynamic' can't happen, so I miss talking to you.

[concretejungles]

you already told me to stop acting like that

[He probably shouldn't send this, but... it really, really hurt when Mikado told him that trying to protect him was condescending. Kida's already at the end of his nerves, so for just a moment lashing out becomes more appealing than keeping up the illusion that there's nothing wrong.]

you dont want my protection when its important so dont ask me to play games with you

were not 7 anymore right

[ballpoint]

...I didn't ask you to play games, I was talking about how fitting it was. I asked you to stop, because for the most part, I can defend myself.

I never said I don't need you to be around, Masaomi.

[concretejungles]

if you say so

[ballpoint]

...So you lied to me? You said you "100%" weren't mad, but you definitely are.

[concretejungles]

[He types in "it's nothing new", but thinks better of sending it. He really didn't lie about that much -- or at least he didn't mean to. He really can't stay mad at Mikado -- and he doesn't want to lose him. He doesn't want to fight with him anymore, either, but he's not sure what to say that isn't faking it.

This is why he didn't come back, at home. Now that Mikado knows he's a messed-up person, how are they supposed to carry on? He can't successfully pretend to be happy, but honestly is so, so painful.]

im not mad at you, it just hurt when you said not to try to protect you

but that doesnt mean you were wrong

and its not why i havent been coming home

[ballpoint]

...I'll try to understand, if you need to talk about something.

[concretejungles]

[This is rough. But... if he can spill his heart out to Shizuo, he ought to be able to say something to Mikado too, right? Or maybe Shizuo's just easier to talk to because he isn't so emotionally invested. Who knows?

He takes a deep breath, exhales, and tries to do this terryfing thing that is talking about it.]

when i made stupid vows of loyalty and stuff when we were kids i meant it

its really important to me to be able to keep you safe

if i cant do that all thats left is the mistakes i keep making, like i cant make up for anything

i didnt come back to ikebukuro because i didn't want to see you if the mistakes outweighed the things i did right

thats kind of how it is right now

[ballpoint]

Nobody is perfect, Masaomi. If you dwell on mistakes, they're going to seem like the only things that matter. ...I've made some mistakes too, like taking someone looking out for me for granted.

[concretejungles]

I feel like I've been making a lot of them lately.

[ballpoint]

I won't tell you not to own up for them, but running away isn't "owning up", so that's something you should stop doing.