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[concretejungles]

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If you're in need of romantic affection or just a friend, leave a message and I'll get back to you soon!


...If this is Izaya-san, you can hang up now."

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Comments

[ballpoint]

...I didn't ask you to play games, I was talking about how fitting it was. I asked you to stop, because for the most part, I can defend myself.

I never said I don't need you to be around, Masaomi.

[concretejungles]

if you say so

[ballpoint]

...So you lied to me? You said you "100%" weren't mad, but you definitely are.

[concretejungles]

[He types in "it's nothing new", but thinks better of sending it. He really didn't lie about that much -- or at least he didn't mean to. He really can't stay mad at Mikado -- and he doesn't want to lose him. He doesn't want to fight with him anymore, either, but he's not sure what to say that isn't faking it.

This is why he didn't come back, at home. Now that Mikado knows he's a messed-up person, how are they supposed to carry on? He can't successfully pretend to be happy, but honestly is so, so painful.]

im not mad at you, it just hurt when you said not to try to protect you

but that doesnt mean you were wrong

and its not why i havent been coming home

[ballpoint]

...I'll try to understand, if you need to talk about something.

[concretejungles]

[This is rough. But... if he can spill his heart out to Shizuo, he ought to be able to say something to Mikado too, right? Or maybe Shizuo's just easier to talk to because he isn't so emotionally invested. Who knows?

He takes a deep breath, exhales, and tries to do this terryfing thing that is talking about it.]

when i made stupid vows of loyalty and stuff when we were kids i meant it

its really important to me to be able to keep you safe

if i cant do that all thats left is the mistakes i keep making, like i cant make up for anything

i didnt come back to ikebukuro because i didn't want to see you if the mistakes outweighed the things i did right

thats kind of how it is right now

[ballpoint]

Nobody is perfect, Masaomi. If you dwell on mistakes, they're going to seem like the only things that matter. ...I've made some mistakes too, like taking someone looking out for me for granted.

[concretejungles]

I feel like I've been making a lot of them lately.

[ballpoint]

I won't tell you not to own up for them, but running away isn't "owning up", so that's something you should stop doing.

[concretejungles]

What should I do then?

[ballpoint]

...I'm not good at advice, but I'm good enough to know the answer to that is "learn from them".

[concretejungles]

I'm trying.

Anyway, I'll be fine. I'm going to stay out for awhile.

I'm not sure I can just come home yet.

[ballpoint]

....Alright. Please don't stay out for long, though, Masaomi.

[concretejungles]

It's okay.

I'll be with Shizuo-san, so I'm safe.