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[concretejungles]

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[concretejungles]

[from here:

To the theatre we go! We're getting you fixed first, bucko. And he doesn't slow down til they're inside, at which point he gently puts Mikado down on the table.]

...Damn it.

[He was late again. As always.]

[ballpoint]

[ when he's set down, he makes another low, upset whine and turns away. ]

Don't--

[concretejungles]

Don't what? We need to get you fixed up, okay?

[pets him, gently]

And then we can go home.

[ballpoint]

[ he had done well to stop crying, before. it was pain and fear and disgust, but now it's just shame and hurt. there's relief there too, relief that he's been saved and that it's going to be "okay" but he can't stop himself right now. ]

No-- If you don't heal me, I can't leave the room, and--

[concretejungles]

Mikado...

[He pulls him into a hug, not too tight, and still stroking his hair. He could cry himself, but he's trying not to. He needs to be the strong one, right now.]

You can stay inside. I'll protect you, I promise. But you've got to get healed.

[ballpoint]

[ moving in any way that's not his head or arms hurts. his crying is briefly cut off by a choke of pain, but then he goes back to trembling and whining almost incoherently. ]

Haha-- Doesn't it make sense for me to stay hurt, though...? If something bad happens to someone who did something bad, they deserved it. So there's no reason--

[concretejungles]

What are you talking about?! You didn't deserve it!

[ballpoint]

I did. I didn't listen to you, or to Sonohara-san...

[concretejungles]

Well, yeah, but I was being a jerk before, wasn't I? And even if I wasn't, that doesn't mean you deserved it! Nobody deserves that! If someone's really bad, they should just die right out.

[ballpoint]

I didn't do anything to make it any better for myself--- I should have let him put the gun in my mouth... ...Mm, no. That's not right... I- I shouldn't have pulled it in the first place...

[ Shouldn't have gotten it. Shouldn't have met Sion-san, Shouldn't have came to Court Shouldn't have created Dollars shouldn't have been born.

...The idea of erasing himself feels welcoming, again. ]

[concretejungles]

No. Don't think like that. [He thinks like that. Don't think like him.] People like that are assholes because they want to be.

[puts his hands on Mikado's face, trying to get him to look him in the eyss]

If it wasn't you, it would have been someone else, because he just wanted to hurt someone. It's not your fault.

[ballpoint]

[ he meets his eyes for a moment - but then quickly looks away. ]

Then I still... should have done something to make it hurt less. ...When he gave me the options to be killed, be his servant, or have sex I-- Should have just consented... ...I- I wouldn't have broken our contract, and was-- too scared... to let him kill me...

[concretejungles]

I'd have fought it all, myself. You didn't do anything wrong, and I'm not going to agree with you that you did no matter what you say.

[ballpoint]

[ he's quiet for a little, and then moves to bury his face in kida's shoulder. ]

...Can I pay half of the cost?

[concretejungles]

Only if you're reasonable about it.

[ballpoint]

...What counts as "unreasonable"...?

[concretejungles]

Don't give any self-destructive prices. You need to take care of yourself right now.

[ballpoint]

...You too, please. Don't accept anything involving sharing bad memories again...

[concretejungles]

I'd rather share old memories than lose a sense, y'know.

[ballpoint]

But it upsets you...

[concretejungles]

Not as much as having my mind or body messed up.

[ballpoint]

[ frowns a lot. ]

Masaomi...

[concretejungles]

Really. I'll be fine. Let's just get it done.

[ballpoint]

[ he nods, and they set their prices! a treasure and having to project a significant memory somewhere public is his half. ]

[concretejungles]

[And a couple more treasures and a positive memory-share for Kida. He can be good, look at him go! And Mikado gets healed for their efforts.]

There. Not so bad, huh?