concretejungles | (no subject)

What are you talking about?! You didn't deserve it!

I did. I didn't listen to you, or to Sonohara-san...

Well, yeah, but I was being a jerk before, wasn't I? And even if I wasn't, that doesn't mean you deserved it! Nobody deserves that! If someone's really bad, they should just die right out.

I didn't do anything to make it any better for myself--- I should have let him put the gun in my mouth... ...Mm, no. That's not right... I- I shouldn't have pulled it in the first place...

[ Shouldn't have gotten it. Shouldn't have met Sion-san, Shouldn't have came to Court Shouldn't have created Dollars shouldn't have been born.

...The idea of erasing himself feels welcoming, again. ]

No. Don't think like that. [He thinks like that. Don't think like him.] People like that are assholes because they want to be.

[puts his hands on Mikado's face, trying to get him to look him in the eyss]

If it wasn't you, it would have been someone else, because he just wanted to hurt someone. It's not your fault.

[ he meets his eyes for a moment - but then quickly looks away. ]

Then I still... should have done something to make it hurt less. ...When he gave me the options to be killed, be his servant, or have sex I-- Should have just consented... ...I- I wouldn't have broken our contract, and was-- too scared... to let him kill me...

I'd have fought it all, myself. You didn't do anything wrong, and I'm not going to agree with you that you did no matter what you say.

[ he's quiet for a little, and then moves to bury his face in kida's shoulder. ]

...Can I pay half of the cost?

Only if you're reasonable about it.

...What counts as "unreasonable"...?

Don't give any self-destructive prices. You need to take care of yourself right now.

...You too, please. Don't accept anything involving sharing bad memories again...

I'd rather share old memories than lose a sense, y'know.

But it upsets you...

Not as much as having my mind or body messed up.

[ frowns a lot. ]

Masaomi...

Really. I'll be fine. Let's just get it done.

[ he nods, and they set their prices! a treasure and having to project a significant memory somewhere public is his half. ]

[And a couple more treasures and a positive memory-share for Kida. He can be good, look at him go! And Mikado gets healed for their efforts.]

There. Not so bad, huh?

[ he smiles weakly! he doesn't feel quite like smiling and doesn't feel like he deserves to be healed, but he's glad that kida doesn't have to go out of his way too much for him.

but, he presses into him a little. ]

Mm... Can I wear your sweater...?

[ that would help rn ]

Huh?

[oh, right]

Ah, yeah, sure.

[pulls it off overhead, and hands it to Mikado. he's still staying riiight with him, of course. he doesn't want any more space between them than necessary.]

[ it's a bit too warm to wear two sweaters at once, so he gets rid of his own to put on kida's. his smile warms a bit after he puts it on and the objective kicks in. ]

[Well then, he'll steal Mikado's. It's not a perfect fit but he's not that much bigger.]

Ready to go home, then?

[ ...okay, he cracks a real smile at that. ]

That looks so bad on you...

Well buff up so we can wear the same size, why don't you?